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Monday, 12 March 2018

No To Melrose Industries And GKN


Melrose Industries want GKN, no doubt because of its eventual break-down price, and will rely on shareholder greed to facilitate this. They appear to be a parasitic money-grubbing enterprise, that in decades past would have been called asset-strippers.

I say no to Melrose.

I say no to the breakup of GKN; a profitable UK manufacturer we will need post Brexit.

I say no to the greed of parasitic asset strippers.

UPDATE (19/01/2018):
"Melrose is poised to offer to funnel £1bn into GKN's pension fund in a last-ditch attempt to win its £8.1bn bid for the engineering giant".

- " Offer"? - Of course they will eventually do that. Surely?
- This sounds a bit like Kraft taking over Cadburys in the UK.
- Promises are cheap and often forgotten and this bribe to the workers is cheap.

UPDATE (28/03/2018):
Bye-bye GKN? (stupid government?) ...

UPDATE (30/03/2018):
GKN "succumed" to hostile Melrose bid.
- UK government confirmed as spineless.
- UK politicians traitors to British industrial global reach.
- Is UK run by a bunch of self-serving, infighting wastrels?
- Good luck GKN workers, you will need it.
Too little, too late (as ever) ...
The vultures have arrived and the goverment dithers ...

UPDATE (25/11/2018):
I knew this would happen - the rape of mother GKN begins...

UPDATE (23/02/2019):
View the ongoing story by the BBC...

Tuesday, 5 December 2017

God's Own County



For those of my readers who have, as yet, been unable to visit this part of the world, let me introduce you to a few shortcuts to enlightenment and the thought that if you are unable to get here, to Yorkshire, you may enjoy some of these images....

Telegraph's Expert Guide To Yorkshire.

  • Whitby14 (Facebook)
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  • Adore The Lovely Unloved
  • Reflections Of Hull
  • Broadband perfection in Hull
  • Some Noteworthy Churches In God's Own County
  • David Hockney's Retreat - The Vast Skies Of Yorkshire
  • East Yorkshire
  • On The Hockney Trail
  • Picturesque Coastal Villages Of Yorkshire
  • Walking In East Yorkshire
  • Pictures Of The Yorkshire Wolds And East Riding
  • Can ya speak Ull?
  • Beaches galore

  • National antipathy towards Hull is still rife, but as these videos suggest, that should be a thing of the past. Video1,  Video2,  Video3.
  • Sunday, 3 December 2017

    DEDICATED TO ME


    I have been low of late, ironically triggered (I think) by my "official" retirement, as if part of me is lost forever; but I know that being mostly silent and in bed again is stupid.

    In the old days I would often write in the third-person, to not acknowledge myself to others, but here I've reworked an old poem to acknowledge myself to me: "DEDICATED TO T.P." (That Person) has become "DEDICATED TO ME"….


    DEDICATED TO ME

    This night is as quiet as me,
    as cool as my feeling inside,
    and the skies as clear as free space
    in my thoughtless apathy.
    My warm bed is protection,
    wombed from the world
    in fragile contentment,
    but as a child is born,
    expelled to the world
    and struggles to survive,
    I will be reborn;
    as surely as nature's inevitability,
    alive or stillborn,
    and must develop
    in my eiderwomb,
    if I am not to die. 

    Back to the original version ...
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    Thursday, 9 November 2017

    LIFE?


    Life is but a period of grace and best at a leisurely pace.


    Tuesday, 2 April 2013

    Truism (for social survival)



    Lying greases the wheels of society but you don't want to smell of it. 
    (Seemingly now the Russian political mantra)

    Personal thought - To tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth is not necessarily conducive to social survival. Ask any whistleblower, unsatisfied sexual partner, politician, news reporter ....

    Read full article via this link

    Tuesday, 16 October 2012

    ANOTHER PROPHECY



    My last post skirted a work related prophecy, which reminded me of a heartfelt prophecy within a poem I wrote in the early 80's. Written at the start of a relationship, as a predictive "warning" to us both, it proved me to be clairvoyant....

    PROPHECY

    (The Meet .....)
    The warm of expression
    you share with me
    is the fear of loneliness
    forever to be.

    The tenderness we show
    is our dream of compassion,
    escape from our lives
    automaton fashioned.

    Fragile, desiring,
    needing to touch,
    be careful my friend
    lest we desire too much.

    (The Middle.....)
    We give too much,
    too much of everything
    to hide our sorrow,
    to keep us together
    we give to the exclusion of others,
    giving what little we have
    to deny inadequacy,
    to delay our loneliness for one more day;
    but caressing the hallow relationship
    we cry with fear.

    (The End.....)
    Frustration is the enemy,
    the lack of conversation
    the lack of substance
    in the indolent marriage,
    two strangers
    cross-talking help,
    unable to take or receive
    so hard do they try to give;
    until there is no-one.

    (The Epitaph.....)

    Give but take
    loving or annoyed,
    talk but listen
    and discover yourselves!
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    Monday, 30 July 2012

    A Swansong For Jeremy


    I have had only 3 employers in my whole life, for which I am grateful and proud; I have been lucky.

    There has been a formative 2 year introduction to the world in a paint factory, 23 years in I.T. with the second largest FMHG manufacturer in the world and, latterly, 12 years in I.T. with an English local government organisation: the miserable side of employment, the enlightening side of employment, then the stultifying.

    An occasional “fact” of my working history endures, for whenever a “need” for major change commences, whether it be the literal decimation of staff to introduce automation, or to boost profits through standardised globalisation (several times), or to slash costs by merging 2 (or more?) local government organisations, there has always been a catalyst for change: a hate figure, a chop-man, a lying parasitic bastard akin to a Judas sheep (“follow me; for if we go forward together this will not hurt”); you know - the person who changes job every couple of years.

    One such we called “PB” (psycho-bitch). One bloke “speedboat”, for he went through departments leaving a bow wave that capsized morale and undermined the banks of operational support within that organisation; then there was Jeremy, a real name and a real shit-sucker who rightly acquired the mockingly accurate moniker of “Jerenemy”, for he truly was yer enemy.

    Now, once again, I am passing through a “need” for change, but this time to save money, to pay off government debt. I will not name our current chop-man, but for those who may follow this blog, here’s an old poem of mine that once circulated via numerous notice boards….



    A SWANSONG FOR JEREMY

    Dear Jeremy,
    what can be said?
    you got a department
    to shoot in the head,
    but the ropes of support
    that held "I.T." in place,
    soon dropped their load
    to splash back in your face.

    Like a 10 second surgeon
    with blood on your hands,
    you've cut off the legs
    upon which you stand,
    for the droves of staff
    that raced past your door,
    were a team of professionals
    that kept you off the floor.

    Not for much longer
    will this go on,
    we'll continue to leave,
    one by one,
    and a time will come
    when we are no more:
    a time not far off,
    when you'll see your door.
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    Tuesday, 22 May 2012

    The Pen Of A Woman


    I was trawling through eBay and came across this on a "ME" page of an obviously exasperated seller, who seems to have vented her feelings about a sale gone bad. Poor Ian .......


    From: Linda
    To: ianrosswalker@*************.com
    Sent: Friday, April 08, 2011 1:05 AM
    Subject: Re: AS REQUESTED .....

    It is indeed a pity you do not recognise that some of us have shift-work jobs that occasionally mean we work long hours, meaning we sleep rather then sit and wait for email.

    Do you have any friends and do you hate women?

    I have never come across such a cheap-skate chiselling person as you before, but I am now pretty sure that though you appear OK "on the surface" you are actually a right skin-flint.

    But don't worry! - I have your cheque and I just ripped it in half. Please keep the records for free. I hope that upon playing each of them, all 18 of them, you are reminded of the disgraceful way you are behaving about "saving" £2.10.

    I recognise that even though you refused to pay the legally accepted (by your bids) £27 postage, I am obviously in the wrong. That you then chiselled me down to £7 postage which I charged, thereby saving you £20 (and losing me £20), again, makes me in the wrong. I am obviously wrong again about the actual costs of getting the records to you for £7; the fact that the stamps alone cost £4.90 and that the packaging and on-costs account for the rest (£2.10) is not obviously allowed to register in your world. £2.10 has paid for a dedicated (re-usable) plastic box, (not some crappy old ex-crisp box), tape to seal it securely, interleaving to stop the singles rubbing against each other in transit and, most expensively, petrol to get your package to the post office and me home again.

    I am selling singles to make much needed money, though you seem to believe, MR IAN WALKER, that I am merely the peasant who should offer my time and services on the basis of being a personal charity worker for the mighty MR IAN WALKER. Shame on you.

    You truly seem to be a bit of an arse-hole - the bit where the shit comes out of.

    Please enjoy the records but refrain from bidding on any of my future items as my goodwill is obviously not valued there.


    He's been told!
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    Tuesday, 28 February 2012

    PASSOVER, DEATH and PAST FORM


    The recent death of a colleague's relative at an early age (in this modern world), prompted a recollection of a period in my life when mortality was at the forefront of my mind. The death of my mother, at 49, when I was 28, knocked me for six and though her death was expected (over several years), her final descent was shocking in its rapidity. I had learned, by that time in my life, that to "dump" emotions onto a page; as a poem or "non-poem", could be both surprising and cathartic, and that a page could be a non judgemental friend, an emotional mirror and a generator of inner calm. At this time, religious themes were present, though I have always regarded myself as agnostic.

    The following words are from that period ......


    PASSOVER

    In all life there is death,
    in all death life.
    In life the fear of death,
    in death the death of fear.
    God's speed.


    DEATH

    The inevitability
    of the blind-date with death
    is a man's solace in life
    a final escape
    to a permanent engagement
    and marriage in the house of God.
















    PAST FORM

    If I die before I live,
    bury me not in vain:
    for I've had my chances,
    loves and romances.
    But passed them all away.
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    Thursday, 9 February 2012

    A MEMORY





    Shimmering blue-green lagoons of tranquillity
    stared into space,
    and wondered,
    am I a good Christian?
    Moist and supple lips of sensuality
    mouthed to the world
    need I do more?
    and I answered no,
    for I thought that,
    and I loved you;
    and you kissed me.

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    LETTER TO A FRIEND


    We have felt it before;
    to others we have opened our being,
    souls and hearts,
    and it hurts
    when it ends,
    a duet of hearts
    coming to a close
    for the entrance of loneliness,
    the opening of old memories
    and wounds,
    giving up the puss of remembrance
    and self-pity;
    but not for us!
    lest we scrutinise this bondage,
    picking its meat
    'till skeletal, lifeless fact remains;
    for mystique and mutual unspoken understanding
    still warms our hearts;
    to nurture love and truth
    as one.

    Ups and downs,
    backwards and forwards: a child on a swing,
    mother waiting anxious for his return to ground;
    I may swing with moods
    but I must come down
    to walk on the ground beside you.













                   A temporary break may be best ...

    There was more to this ...
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    Tuesday, 20 December 2011

    FEELINGS


    This poem of mine was recorded by the band Kraftberk101 who sent me a copy that I have since misplaced. Performed in a trance like monotone it is a hypnotic chiller. If I come across the CD I'll let you hear it.
     
    I thought my love was underhand.
    But how wrong.
    So wrong.
    For it welled up and filled my soul.
    Fast: 'till I could not hold.
    And how it came I cannot explain.
    But I am glad.
    Glad that it came.
    Glad but sad that my love,
    my mixed-up feelings could never be.
    I tried to show,
    without flamboyance.
    With discretion.
    Without embarrassment,
    my feelings for you,
    and about you.
    I did not know.
    I do not know if you knew or saw.
    But I longed for you to see me there.
    To pluck my line and tow me in.
    To give to me what I would give.
    To recognise me, as I did thee.
    This I thought before we met,
    really met I mean,
    when I told, or try to tell,
    of all that I did feel.
    You listened.
    You stayed.
    You heard what I tried to say.
    And thought;
    not laughed or brushed words aside.
    Thought and answered.
    And listening to you I understood,
    that subject matter it should not bloom.
    That regard should remain.
    That friendship live.
    And for this I do thank you.


    Love is a fearsome master






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    Monday, 19 December 2011

    UNFINISHED (Gonna Get To You)


    This poem inspired the track "Gonna Get To You" by the band Kraftberk101, who sent me a copy that I have since misplaced. Performed in an industrial-techno sort of way, the track lyrics differ from this poem and are darkly ambivalent, unlike the poem which I think is forthright and easy to interpret. If I come across the CD I'll let you have the track and its lyrics. Hear it here...


    (An actor)























    Your sickness is inside of you
    trapped within your head,
    distraught with insecurities,
    irrational instabilities
    are signs I always dread.

    With childish eyes - implicit faith
    to me you'd run in pain,
    I'd never know our meeting place
    you called - I always came.
    Your breath it smelled of medication
    your hair of almond oil,
    clothes dishevelled,
    yellowing teeth,
    the outside world was seen through me.

    I do not hate you.
    I did not let them see you die.
    I never left you Chessy.
    My love it could not lie.

    I stood by you Largactil bound
    tried to prove you wrong,
    bought you a hat so you wouldn't burn
    walking in the sun.
    Through slurring speech,
    fantastic thoughts,
    I loved you then so strong,
    determination every day;
    "let nothing more go wrong".

    Time has passed and you've struggled back
    but here we stand again,
    the crossroads from which this time;
    we'll follow different lanes.

    Personal comment - the poem above is from my real life. It covers a frightening and traumatic time for both of us; for myself, the helpless and useless and emotionally attached boyfriend riddled by guilt and years of nightmares.

    For 30years we had this common secret, but a chance meeting gave up forgiveness and resolution by a recovered patient, happily married with two children.

    On our medically dictated route there were good times and very bad and along the way numerous notes (poems) were written by me. I now feel free to let you see some.


    LOVE HURTS (TROUBLED TIMES)

    If you think of dying
    don't leave me alone,
    tell me in the morning,
    or warn me on the phone.

    If you want to leave this world,
    just want to get away,
    I think I'd like to come along,
    but maybe not today.

    If you want to leave me
    try to tell me why,
    so I can understand you,
    as I begin to die.

    Though you have your troubles
    and suffering we are,
    call me anyway,
    we'll chat in the car.

    Above all else,
    and this is paramount,
    know you are my Chessy
    and loved without a doubt.

    There was a short period of rationality but soon enough a relapse that was as unexpected as it was rapid. I was quickly and abruptly appraised of an uncertain prognosis. 


    FALLEN ANGEL

    A broken angel,
    down on one wing,
    first lost resilience
    then entered a spin.

    Crashing to earth,
    dazed and confused,
    she patched up the crack
    alighted and flew.

    But seeming quite healed,
    the crack reappeared,
    and she crashed to the ground
    worse than was feared.

    The angel is down,
    the angel is down,
    someone please help me;
    my angel is down.

    We tried; continuing to have ups and downs and even spoke of splitting up, but loyalty to each other over-rode what we both (I think) knew was happening.


    LETTER TO A FRIEND

    We have felt it before;
    to others we have opened our being,
    souls and hearts,
    and it hurts
    when it ends,
    a duet of hearts
    coming to a close
    for the entrance of loneliness,
    the opening of old memories
    and wounds,
    giving up the puss of remembrance
    and self-pity;
    but not for us!
    lest we scrutinise this bondage,
    picking its meat
    'till skeletal, lifeless fact remains;
    for mystique and mutual unspoken understanding
    still warms our hearts;
    to nurture love and truth
    as one.

    Ups and downs,
    backwards and forwards: a child on a swing,
    mother waiting anxious for his return to ground;
    I may swing with moods
    but I must come down
    to walk on the ground beside you.

    Our difficulties continued for a year and I began to go down with our ship. I knew I wanted to jump but thought I would be judged a bad person for what self-preservation wanted me to do; I saw no improvement however and decided it all had to stop. I needed to walk and I felt a right bastard afterwards.  AFTERMATH came to me when I needed to concentrate on a new (life long) career.


    AFTERMATH

    I can see us drifting apart,
    I can see a fond farewell,
    a bitter-sweet
    on a screen in the back of my mind.
    I feel sorrow deep inside
    apprehensive and tense,
    not wanting a conclusion
    for fear of an awful truth,
    not knowing what will happen,
    not knowing what I want to happen.
    I feel lonely,
    a spectator at my own loss
    as the wedge of uncertainly
    drives us apart.

    With the final split, an anger born out of a depression joined me for months; this anti-woman piece became my mantra and I cared not for anything or anyone.


    DEPRESSION TALKS

    For the twisting of feelings,
    the deceptive ease of use;
    for the guilt I've felt
    and the switchback affair,
    and festering resentment in its throes of death.
    For all this
    and fears of uncertainty;
    womankind I dismiss.

    Life was bad at this time, a long time ago, and this poem with others of its ilk were all written around the same time;  I am revealing them now as I look back, with the original emotion(s) neatly and securely "boxed away".


    WHAT'S THE POINT?

    The point of life seems to be to get by.
    To move from day to day,
    wandering to a time of longing.

    Nothing seems controllable anymore,
    I seem to mime other people's wishes,
    and wonder where I've gone.

    Ambitions, love or happiness and caring,
    all blunted, bludgeoned and twisted to coarseness
    as dictation moulds my life and bolsters my sadness.

    After I walked away, an act of self-defence, the sorrow eased, then this memory of a happier time came to mind; melancholic but somehow comforting.


    A MEMORY

    Shimmering blue-green lagoons of tranquillity
    stared into space,
    and wondered,
    Am I a good Christian?
    Moist and supple lips of sensuality
    mouthed to the world
    need I do more?
    and I answered no,
    for I thought that,
    and I loved you;
    and you kissed me.

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    OUR LOVE?


    This poem was recorded by the band Kraftberk101 who sent me a copy that I have since misplaced. Performed in a punky-Stones sort of way, it builds nicely into a bit of a rocker, so if I come across the CD I'll let you hear it.



    My Love
    is a kinda strange love,
    for my love hurts me so.

    Our love
    is a kinda strained love,
    for our love is mine alone.

    You told me -
    you told me that you loved me.
    You told me -
    please don't go.

    But your love
    is nothing but my love,
    for your love is from my glow;
    and our love
    is really kinda no love;
    for our love - it's so cold.

    And Passion?
    Where's the passion?
    And loving?
    well that's all gone!

    So go,
    go on - go!
    And leave me all alone.
    Leave me all alone.U POE

     

    THE LAST GREAT ADVENTURE?




    An "end-game" of addiction, the despair of a life only going one way: some people are predisposed to drug abuse, as others are to alcohol abuse, quite possibly because they are "bored" or were abused themselves, but more probably because they have lost essential feelings of self worth or have become detached from mainstream society; a society with ever increasing demands for total conformity. Is there any future other then your drug of choice and how would you imagine your final fix? ......

    It's near me and full
    and I must smash it to survive;
    but as the liquid slides through the needle
    sheathed in my hand,
    the hit in my brain takes me.

    I am dying;
    a living horror of pseudo pleasures,
    but entombed in the folds of my mind
    the deep silence briefly intoxicates,
    before synesthesia of light
    becomes a cacophony of sound
    and fearing harsh reds,
    screaming yellows
    and agonising blues,
    I close my eyes
    to see another me of former beauty
    and we stare as if each the reflection of vanity.
    She pities me
    but I laugh in her face
    as she sheds cloned images;
    advancing as a distorting hoard
    intent upon my self destruction.


    Zoom in to see the nightmare


    For those lucky enough to escape from their habit, researchers are coming to understand the benefits of taking hallucinogenic drugs for therapeutic reasons, treating a recently described disorder called  HPPD.
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